10th Post

Hmm...this thing came earlyer than i thought. so.....YAY ITS MY TENTH POST!!!!. Now, down to buisness. Today gay fucking skool started. Practice was gay also, cause i get to wake up at 6:00 to get yelled at by a commie. Then it started raining, once again i yelled at the raingod, people stared. Later that morning i came to realize i really hate Charlie. This fucking boob just fucking gets too me. He is like a bigger dullard than Pendleton. I dont even know why the fuck he chills with us, im guessing because he is secretly in fucking love with Ernie, no one has the balls to tell him he gets in the way (i've told him, but he thought i was joking or he doesnt respect me, i donno. fuck him), and did i mention he has a homosexual crush on Ernie? Fucking shitface doesnt know when he gets in the way, he is usually in the way like all the time. Last year he really got in the way, like more than fucking Taylor, that kid also gets to me, but not as much because he gets quiet when u tell him off. Shit face. Yea charlie i dislike alot, even though i do my best to fucking try to get a reason to give him respect, he ends up fucking himself by doing something stupid or trying way to hard. and for some reason im the only one that fucking realises he really doesnt have any friends just fucking people he forces to talk to him. FUCK YOU. i really try to give him some credit, but he pisses away the opportunity, mabe because he tryes way to hard and ends up looking like a fuck face, or mabe its cause he doesnt really have a hold on who he really is and is forced to pretend he is someone he is not. This shit face tryes to fucking be funny and sorta can be, but then he tryes to keep the rhythm going but ends up crashing and burning making the whole day of jokes a bust. Fuck then i donno if he is retarded or like, just arrogant. Because sometimes people will give him the biggest clearest signals to get the fuck away but he goes ahead pretending they are his friends. sometimes its fucking funny in a dark sorta way. also he tryd to remotely act like me, either as a joke or a serious thing, but he got to me. then he is trying to act all tough when he goes up to me i instantly go on the defence he thinks its funny, but im not going to get sucker punched so what if it looks like im a pussy, fuck him, i am too much of a dick to everyone not to be a little scared of revenge. Yea this guy, fuck i really cannot get along with, i do my best, but either im right, or i am putting my scocial standards too high. Then what really got to me is in the morning one of my friends came with a massive hangover, we are just making fun of him and shit a little clapping in his ear, we stop. Who has to come to fucking shake his fucking boddy to really fuck shit up for my friend? yep the fucking idiot. This jackass has to go up to him and like give him a hard fucking push, like the ones you give when u are about to start a fight. fuck. That is not to cool when u have a hangover. Fucking idiot, thats like -5 points on the respect scale. and his was already at 0 to begin with. But because im such a fucking awsome person, i will not drop him below 0 even though he deserves it. Fuck him.

So i get home, happy cause i dont have practice. Then i eet, do my homework, then i just pass out, i am so tired. I wake up, then i talk to one of my friends from hanks, she is awsome a very nice gal, much respect towards her and her sis. so i start talkin to Nickles, as i call her, i feel sorr because i was skrewing with her, making her think i was mad. (If ur reeding this, i am not mad or ever was, i feel awful about it im sorry) then my brother has to use the computer at the very moment i was doing this, so she ended up logging off. then my cusin came, distracted me. i just felt like a bad friend at the moment, but then he brought out the new FHM and i got happy again. Arrrrrg. i finish reeding most of it, i start thinkin of my situation with Nickles, i get sad.

So later i talk to Rose, i reallise once again how much i care for her. And she makes everything better. so now im happy and shit. so now im going to talk to Rose till one of us falls asleep.
Untill i can post, most likely Sat.
Um.
Good day, and remember the answer is blowing in the wind.