48th Post

I'm sorry blogger, www.myspace.com has almost taken over

It's pretty sad to see people get sucked into conformity, esp when those people are the people that you look up to be the one's that don't ever do such things. I can safely say that i have had a myspace WAY longer than anyone else.

On the other hand, HS and conformity are ment for eachother, it isn't a crime to try to get some fun out of it. I dont know.

So turkey day came and went, last year around the same time i was in love with someone else, she knows who she is.

Christmas came and santa brought me a TI-89. I still need to read the manual. And Battlefield 2 .that game pwns. I cant wait to go back to school so i can get my cable so i can play online and get my ass kicked by 1337 players.

My sister came, i cant believe she left, i miss her. I like how we get along and stuff. I guess because she has gone through it and she knows how i feel.

Next step college, yea, college, i said it. I'm going to DeVry in phoenix. Ive been accepted and everything. Im scared, excited, and bummed out. I like El Paso, but i cant let this momentum just pass, gotta keep moving.

im going to miss everyone here, from you to that kid i don't know the name of...but what am i REALLY leaving behind? i dont know either. I mean it feels like my friends just dont give a shit about me, i havent received any calls, any holiday greetings, anything. kinda sux, but i dont care, i was never the most outgoing one either. I guess im too picky and shit. I cant blame them. But now i look back, fuck i really am a loser, but do i REALLY care? The answer is no, i live haply.

It's pretty sick how our group of people kinda ended up. Everyone is looking for the next person to "love". I find it pointless, you can't force it, thought i am not the one to talk, but it's just sad to see everyone stressed about having someone. I mean, i see some of these couples, is making out and fucking all that there is to a relationship? Is just talking and keeping your hands to yourself a relationship? commitment of that sort comes with all those things, physical and emotional. I don't know, i need a friend, someone to talk to. I have them, but they have girlfriends, it's like a dripping faucet. I just dont feel comfortable, i have been fucked over too many times, but then again... im probably just not leting the past go. I am too scared of getting my shit ruined i dont know what the hell to do. Thank goodness for VACATION! w00t!

Love, it is over used.
bye