34th Post

I dont give a fuck anymore.
No im not going to kill myself u ingrate. I just dont care about some stuff anymore.what's done is done, thats it. If there is a way to fix shit i would be 50-50 on it. some of this stuff was just too much to care about, and it lead nowhere, so fuck it. Now, im not saying if some stuff would change i wouldnt care, but for the time being, i just dropped it. So fuck it. If stuff would change, i would gather the peices and take it a step at a time. I guess i stoped caring because im too confused, all this crazyness just got me bored. i was goin in circles, and i couldnt gather information this whole time, it was just pointless to keep woring about it. Now i have droped it on the ground, NEER ME. It's not compleatly over. but i am just droping it for the time being, and when i do pick it up, i surely wont treat it the same.

On to further buisness,
my grandma is sick. I went to juarez to visit her, man, Mexico has the right idea. They have everything, roads that lead to nowhere, stop signs for U-Turns. People doin acid in the bathroom, dog's with no leash, kids with leashes, yep they got it goin on. I mean, i walk into to hospital on the door it says clearly, "NO ALIMENTO" and right under "NO NIñOS" (so i cant get the capital ñ, fuck off). So i walk in thinking this place would kick ass, it says no kids. I walk in, little kids walkin around, fuck. But about 3 of them are gettin yelled at and another one was crying, so it made up for it. In the corner there is a candy machine. Mexico likes to stick it to the man. Some of my family is waiting for us, i say hi, i go to the bathroom. There is a guy normal lookin, until i see his spoon, i leave. I'm waiting for them to admit us to see my grandma. Im entertained by my cousins 2 little girls, they are so cute, their hands are small enough to get peppomints and gum. Score. So my dad calls me to go into the other side where all the patients are at. He tells me to hold this water bottle. hmm...So we pass the receptionist, he goes up to the "guard" (this guy, he is just sitting there lookin at people pass by makin sure they have either, a green slip or something to give to a patient) he tryes to stop me, i just point he lets me go. We turn the corner, i see a plaza lined with hospital beds, IV drips, and some blood on patients, meh at least it doesnt smell like a nursing home. I say hi to my grandma, it gets awkward because neither her or i know wat to say, i leave, my dad stops me and asks me to leave the water bottle. So im back in the waiting room, i start to day dream and i look outside, the only thing that i get reminded of is some of the footage from Iraq. I mean there is everything from this long window that you would see in Baghdad. You got ur helicopter, desert, street corner, abandoned building, green taxi, poor guy, injured guy, hospital van. All you need is the soldiers and AK-47 on kids. I see this scenerio, snipers on roofs, soldiers in humvees drivin around on patrol with M1A1's at their sides. Hooah! or CommoRadio 0 9 for u AAO people ;) . i wish more people knew what Hooah ment, because, i know for a fact taht i look like a dumnass when i say it at school.

This is where i say goodbye,
Good Bye

(hehehehe, im leet)